I know it’s technically early but I know I have plans tomorrow, starting the new year running (so to speak) so I wanted to wish you and yours happiness today.

I am with everyone in feeling a sense of relief that 2009 is over and I am ready to welcome in 2010 or as my friend Bevin puts it 20Femme.  I like that and I plan to use it this coming year as well.  This will be the year 20Femme for me.  I already feel big things in the universe and I am going to be part of it.

In years past I have written off resolutions but I feel so overwhelmed with positive action that this year I am going to have a few of my own.  I would like to share them with you all now, not just so you can see but so that they are out there in the world, somewhere else other than my brain, so I will be held more accountable.

1. I will try to write something everyday.  Be it a blog on here, or a story in my journal.  I spent the last year talking about how I wanted to write more, write something that mattered but I never did.  I always made excuses. So even if it’s just a paragraph, something.  And notice I put tried.  I’m doing this smart, I’m not setting myself up for failure.
2. I will continue to cut bad influences from my life and to remove negative talk from my vocabulary.  nothing bummed me more than how I felt after having bitch sessions this past year.  Yes, sometimes they are cathartic but normally they made me mad or upset at the end of it.  And I found while I thought I was helping myself by cutting it down to only doing it with one or two people was helping me but really they were just helping to fuel the wheels of dissatisfaction in me.  I am going to continue to cut those people from my life and to cut that negative energy out.
3. I will look for and hopefully get a job that I believe in and enjoy.  Being unemployed has been fun but I am ready for steady employment.  I am ready to be part of a solution.  I will find this job and I will get it.  This is something I just feel 20Femme has in store for me.
4. In honor of 20Femme, I will spend more time on taking care of myself.  This means healing properly from my broken ankle.  This means only putting things that taste good and are good for me ( and yes, chocolate and ice cream are sometimes good for you) into myself.  I want to start exercising once I get the go ahead from my doctors.  Not to change my body but to change how I feel in my body.  I love my shape and my curves but when I am working out I just feel more connected to it instead of it just being a container that holds me.
5. I am going to get good habits.  They say that it takes 28 days of doing something repeatedly for it to become a habit.  I plan to do this, this is also in conjunction with the resolution to take better care of myself.  I hate to admit it but I don’t even use face lotion everyday.  This is the first habit I’m going to try for.
6. I am going to cook more and for my friends more often.  I love being surrounded by people.  I love creating things in the kitchen.  So tell me why I have yet to do this to my satisfaction?  It will happen and it will be delicious.
7. I am going to spend time nurturing the friendships I truly care about.  There are so many people in my life that I just truly feel blessed to know.  I want these relationships to mature and to grow and to blossom as I know they can.
8. I am going to continue to work on my art.  Just because I am broken and haven’t been able to perform burlesque for the last two months doesn’t mean the flame has died.  I had a friend over recently (for whom I made coffee, not quite cooking but baby steps) and they just reiterated the fact that you can tell I love to perform when I am on stage.  I do.  I want to set goals for myself.  I am not going to let this broken ankle keep me from the goals I had already set for myself.  I love it and it is a part of me.
9. I will take the time to show my PiC, my partner in crime, my wife that I love her more often.  She has been my rock.  I am going to work to show her that and to give her the credit she deserves more often.  I know I appreciate her but I need to show her more often how much I do. We are going to grow our family, even if only in our love for each other.
10. I am going to be me.  So often I find myself changing how I am to fit in with what I think people want from me.  I get so scared of what other people thing.  I feel like all my other resolutions work back to just this, me being true to who I am and trying to be the best Bambi there is.  Also, I’m going to get my name legally changed.

So there you go cats and kittens, my resolutions for 20Femme, the year of Femme.  It is going to continue to be a roller coaster, just like 2009 but it’s going to be good one.  That is not to say all of 2009 was bad.  I did celebrate being married for one year, I moved to New York City, I became close friends with two of my idols.  I can say those are some pretty incredible things, just expect more in the year to come

Huggles and Kisses!

Something someone created, I'm suppose to be squatting in case you couldn't tell (I couldn't)

Tags: 20Femme, bambi galore, broken ankle, burlesque, resolutions

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