I’ve been all sorts of busy as of late.  If not hanging with friends, helping friends prepare for Vegas or going to MoMa with friends, I’ve been busy making our house more of a home.  I am happy to say that since signing a new lease I’ve been in domestic goddess mode.  We did a spring clean from top to toe which included reorganizing, storing and getting rid of old stuff.  I still can’t believe I put together 3 bags of clothes for goodwill!  We also went to my Mecca and bought some more furniture to replace what was our subleasors from before.  We really love the flow we have now and it has made my baking side spring to life.  Last week, I shared Triple Salted Caramel Cupcakes I made from Sprinkle Bakes.  Mine looked just like the pictures sans the caramel rounds, those did not want to work with me (I think it was a heating issue) but no one minded as they were devoured by all they were shared with.  It’s been good times.

One thing I did do was go to see Marina Abromovic with World Famous *BoB* and it was just so moving.  Recreations and photos cannot even begin to express the depth and emotion of Marina’s pieces but they still made my soul quiver with energy.  Seeing Marina there, she is such a beautiful soul, was awe inspiring.  The current piece she was doing just seemed so giving of herself and her spirit, I could not imagine doing for a day what she had done for over a month and a half.  I feel like it opened me up to a new chapter in my art.

As far as my art goes as well, I have a nice schedule for this month!  I will put more details up as the dates get closer but if you want to mark your calendars…

• June 12th, Art Monkey’s Ball, The Red Lotus Room from 6-12
• June 13th, Guyz and Dollz: A Benefit for MADRE, China 1 NYC at 8
• June 26th, HyperGender, WoW Cafe Theater at 8
• June 27th, Kitty Nights, Bar on A at 9

This is of course not to say other things may not be added to the schedule or  that I’m not doing private events but why bring those up

I’m looking forward to all that this summer has to hold and if it all goes like last night did, it will be amazing.  Last night I was a guest at Jo Weldon’s Book Release Party.  It was awesome!  Not just the guests, or the show, or the food or the book, but everything!  I got to meet Bambi Sr. and Bambi Jr.  which was totally surreal and amazing, I even got my picture taken with them and Bambi the Mermaid.  It was a quartet of Bambis!  The book is just incredible.  There is so much good information in there as well as anecdotes and history.  It is by far a MUST read for any burlesque performer, beginning or veteran. Being able to share that moment with Jo felt special, to me at least, plus we saw Moby (another guest) and that totally jazzed PiC.

So off to do some more baking I think.  There are few black bananas that are just begging to be put out of their misery and made into bread.

Huggles and Kisses everyone!

So for this Christmas Season I received, luckily, from quite a few family members a little bit of cash.  They all said, spend it on something I needed.  Thing is, the stuff I needed most of the money was food, rent and bills so that’s where all the little gifts went.  My parents however gave us a sizable amount of money and at two different times said spend it on what you need and on what you want.  Well what if what you want and what you need are not the same?

Having been without a job for so long, burlesque or otherwise, I have come to live on the scraps of what works.  I have one pair of pants, 3 skirts which all are not dressy, and some dresses.  All my costumes need upgrades as well as just my desire and need for new costumes.  I need new costumes but does that need outweigh the need for new shoes that don’t have holes in them or for a pair of jeans so I can go out in public without looking like a hobo?  I don’t know.  I am torn.

While it makes more sense to spend it on the clothing items I need for everyday wear without upgrading or getting new costumes I will not be able to get gigs and if I’m unable to get gigs then I won’t be able to make money.  I used to follow this rule though, that only burlesque money could be spent of burlesque.  Maybe I just suck it up for a little bit and go back to that but again without new pieces how do I get the gigs.  It’s a catch 22.

Then there’s the part of me which says, get clothes you want to wear out.  Dress for the person you want to be but if I do that then I don’t have any work clothes.  So maybe I should spend it getting a more professional wardrobe but then I don’t know if once I’m healed and hopefully working if I want to work in a setting where I can’t dress like myself.  But if I do get a job like that I’ll need those clothes right away so that I can go into work.  It’s another conundrum.

I hope this doesn’t make me sound ungrateful.  After everything we have gone through this year, I am so touched beyond words to even have this problem I just don’t know what I want and what I need right now.  At least I’ve been able to narrow the whole thing down to clothes, I don’t really want or need anything else.  Otherwise I could just spend it all on books or movies, or music, those are the only other things I want.  Luckily I know better than that.

Sorry this isn’t anything deeper for you all.  You’d think after having this blog for 2 years I’d know how to write about things that mattered more to other people.  Sadly I’m still just as self involved as before on here.  I do appreciate your taking the time to at least pretend to read it though.  Especially with the broken ankle.  I know my life has come to a crawl as of lately but I can only hope that with the new year and the removal of my screws that there will be bigger and better things on the horizon.  I feel it, this is the year for change.

Huggles and Kisses.

A few days ago this question was posed out into the universe.  I think it may have been meant as an insult but it actually led me to wonder, what is a Bambi Galore.  While I pondered on this I figured I’d reach out to those that might know and ask the interwebs.

some responses I got were:

• Sexy, Eclectic, A fighter
• more Bambi than you can handle, sucka!
• A fancy Drink
• A dirty sex activity
• A gay cervid
• the hottest chunk of white meat this holiday season
• a cuntrag (sic)

Now while my triple weave does pull moisture away from your skin I prefer to not think of myself as a feminine hygiene product. Though…. depending on who was using the product, sorry sorry, that’s too visual even for me, lol.  But it did make me think.  Who is Bambi Galore, what is a Bambi Galore.

I guess I would say a Bambi Galore is a state of being.  It’s an identity where you are more than just a mear mortal but you are in no ways a God.  You are just on your way to something bigger and brighter.  It’s an attitude where you put it all out there and you understand there will be haters, i.e. the cunt rag comment, but that’s ok because it’s through that that you become greater.  It’s easier to answer who Bambi Galore is.

Bambi Galore is a performer.  She is a size positive, sex positive, gender bending performer who likes to make people feel joyous but is also not afraid to say how the world really is while doing it.  She’s not afraid being hurt and still loves the world fully.  She does not intimidate because she stands behind what she says and believes.  She is a drag mother and a drag daughter to many.  She respects the history and those that came before her and encourage those that have come after her.

But again, what a Bambi Galore is, is harder to interpret.  The easiest answer is Bambi Galore is a woman, a ftf impersonator, a burlesque performer but a Bambi Galore is more than that.  I cannot imagine what my life would be like if Bambi Galore had not become part of it.  I would not have met some of the most incredible beings in existence.  I would not have traveled to the places I have been or had the guts to move to New York City.  I wouldn’t have had the courage to leave an abusive relationship or put it all on the line for the chance at meeting my soulmate.  I owe my life to Bambi Galore and I am so blessed to have it be a part of me.

If you have some suggestions to what the hell a Bambi Galore is, feel free to comment.  I will say, sadly, due to people’s inabilities to act as adults I will need to be approving comments now but don’t worry, I don’t plan to keep out all the bad ones.  I mean it’s only through the haters that we can continue to want to get better and be better, so keep on hating!

Though I like the loves too

Huggles and kisses!

So we are constantly tested with new paths.  I have taken one myself and I find I keep going back and forth on it.  I mean, I love the path and I think it would be a natural one for me but I’m not sure of where I am taking this path.  If the environment will be a beneficial enough one for me to take it there.  But at the same time I am not a quitter and I fear if I back out of this environment it will seem like I’m a quitter.  Does that make sense? I’m not sure

Yesterday was my third birthday as a burlesque performer.  If you had told me that Wednesday night 3 years ago I would move to NYC to pursue a career further in burlesque I would have thought you were insane.  I would have thought that was out of my league.  Now I know that I have grown as a performer and that I just feel the growth continuing.

I celebrated yesterday by going to my favorite store in Brooklyn, Re/Dress and just ogling all of their fineries.  There’s a dress I REALLLLY want but being of the unemployed beast I didn’t get it.  Then I went down to the Slipper Room and took a class with Jo Boobs and Julie Atlas Muz.  Both such incredible women and I really gained a lot from the teachers and my fellow students. Then it was off to meet the POC at Kitty Nights.  It was a fun show with cute acts.  Good times were had and we truly enjoyed ourselves.

I feel like I am assimilating into living in New York very well.  I am catching onto the subway system which is good.  I actually have had people ask me for directions!  That’s always a good sign.  Things over all just feel calmer in the spirit here.  Maybe that’s cause we haven’t been around long enough to be part of any drama but that’s ok by me.

Oh, I am so sorry for my slacking on everything.  While I do love love love New York the majority of my energies have been going into trying to find employment.  My mind gets so one tracked and it’s all I can focus on.  Hopefully soon though.  I actually have had a few interviews and have at least one more lined up with a wait on a phone call as well.

So yeah, I’m going to try to make myself post atleast twice a week and do a video blog once a week.  Maybe one written post and one video, I don’t know.  We shall see though but I will do more to stay in contact with you all.  And I am going to focus this upcoming year on fine tuning my performances.  Making them sparkle more, making them more wow factor and such.

Huggles and kisses

If you live in anywhere between DC and Richmond and are in the need of some furniture or housing fixtures, then come on down to Casa Galore and get yourself some! We will be trying to sell everything so that we don’t have to bring it with us to NYC. So come and get it and help a sister out!

A day off. To myself no less. I thought I had a hair appointment today but it’s actually tomorrow so I have not had any reason to get out of bed! It’s super nice. That is, not to say, that I don’t have a foot long list of chores to do for the house, the move and burlesque, it just means I’m ignoring them all. It’s still nice.
This weekend was incredible. I really do like performing several nights in a row. It makes me feel alive. I am also so so happy to have picked up the supplies I needed for those two costumes. $180 at the end of it all! But still a good investment for what’s going to be some really awesome pieces. I hope.
This month is going to fly by so fast! I only have two weeks left of the day job then all energies will be on moving. But don’t think my burlesque calendar has gotten any light, oh no! I’m still jumping up and down from DC to Richmond and back all month. It’s actually a good thing that the PiC has decided to steal my final show from me. She’s running the whole thing people! I have no control, as an artist or a producer. I’m scared but excited. I do know though that it’s going to be an insane line up. And one raging party!
Oh, I am over stimulated mentally so I am going to let you go. Oh there are grand things on the horizon, for everyone I feel. Just keep looking to the sky for tomorrow and soon it shall be here.
Huggles and kisses!

But I WANT THIS!!!!

You can get it at, http://www.thinkgeek.com/stuff/41/unicorn-chaser.html

I mean, I don’t ask for a lot right?? Just not to be “dicked” with and things that are pink and glittery and have unicorns on them!! 

Man on man

And so with a new year comes new hope and a new change.  With a new year comes bigger and better things.  I have hope in our future, in my future, in the future of the nation.  We have all been through some hard times, some more recently than others but what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.  And we are stronger, we have a lot to look forward to and I hope that you too have hope in your heart.  I look forward to seeing you in the future.  You can see my pride in the photo below by StereoVision along with the rest of the set in the gallery.  Here’s to you and to our future and to hope and to life.

Huggles and kisses.

Oy! If I didn’t just get a few hours of car sleep and then went right to work to have kids attack me (successfully, a lovely scratch across my cheek and a mysterious bruise on my neither regions) I would write all about the amazing times I had in New York AND New Jersey.  But I am so exhausted beyond  words that I can’t even think.   I will post something telling about all the wonderousness tomorrow, I swear and maybe some more picture love!

Huggles and Kisses lovahs!